Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Happy nine months little man

Van is 9 months today. We hope we will be with him when he turns 10 months. Here's hoping we get the much anticipated, much desired, much thought about "call" in the next 2-3 weeks (or sooner!).


Tuesday, April 20, 2010


When I woke up this morning little did I know there would be a special little email waiting for me. It was our agency's director saying that the "extra" investigation is complete!! Everything looks good. She is hopeful that we will travel mid-May :) :) :) This could be later or earlier but her mid-range guess is May 17th. Just before he turns 10 months. But hey, if it's later so be it. We are just relieved we are back on track!

We couldn't be happier right now, honestly I can't even describe my emotions. I read the email on my iPhone on the way to the bus and promptly burst into tears! But this time they were happy tears...and tears of relief! Now of course the cautious person in me feels that I won't be truly and fully relieved of all my doubt until he is in my arms and the papers are signed. We've been through too much to fully "believe". But I am almost to the optimistic me that existed in February when I thought we'd leave any day.

So the nursery door has been cracked open again, the pictures are being lovingly looked at and our future imaginings once more involve a little guy named Van :)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Just when you think things will never get better they do....a tiny bit...

Well, quick on the heals of my end of rope, frustrated mini-rant (which I removed as it was a little raw) I am now going to offer an update. We had thought our agency wasn't getting back to us but in fact an email had been sent last week but not received. A precious email, the latest causality of the occasional lost in cyberspace happening. The emails came fast and thick today. Which I am so thankful for because we were really beginning to feel so alone, lost and scared. The latest is....and it's not much but we'll take it...the feeling at our orphanage in Hoa Binh is that this is not a matter of if but when. From their point of view this will happen. Of course they are not the deciding authority but hey, I like their point of view. Now, if we had not experienced two failed referrals we would be sitting back with feet up just waiting for the call. But our past experiences preclude us from relaxing completely. However, it's a slim glimmer of hope and that is something we have not had for a good month or more! So now we wait...some more...

So again, please continue to keep everything crossed and lets hope that this really truly works out for us and we have our little man home...sooner rather than later...

Friday, April 2, 2010


Just to let everyone know I am not sure when I will be blogging again. It seems our journey has hit another, rather large, bump in the road. Some pretty serious complications have arisen with our attempts to adopt Van. We are not sure where this will all go but as of now we are hoping these complications will not become insurmountable. We are really hoping we are not facing another failed referral but only time will tell.

Please send warm thoughts our way and cross everything that can possibly be crossed i.e. toes, fingers, arms etc.!